This and That .....

Hello everyone,
I know it has been awhile. I apologize for this :) Well Celia is now 9 mths old ( whew how time flys ) She weighs 22.9 lbs and is 30 1/4 in. long. She has mastered crawling and is now trying to walk :) She has cut 6 teeth already and loves to use them. I have updated pics.
Shawn is a great big brother. He is now recording his own music ( poor me ) in hopes to have it published one day ;)
For Drakes 2nd heavenly birthday I made a chocolate cake and Celia loved it :) I still get teary eyed just thinking of him. Sometimes I feel so alone when I know I have this look on my face and someone asks "whats wrong ?" and I just reply "nothing im fine." I dont think I am fine at all. even after 2 yrs I struggle daily. I cry most nights after everyone has gone to bed. I look at Shawn and Celia and I am greatful and blessed to have them. I guess like any mother that has lost a child, I long to hold him and cuddle him. I think that this feeling will always be there and I guess most people will never get why it doesnt subside. There is a poem that best describes the way i feel....

"I Lost My Child Today"

I lost my child today.
People came to weep and cry
As I just sat and stared, dry eyed.
They struggled to find words to say
To try and make the pain go away.
I walked the floor in disbelief.
I lost my child today.

I lost my child last month.
Most of the people went away.
Some still call and some still stay.
I wait to wake up from this dream
This can't be real--I want to scream.
Yet everything is locked inside,
God, help me, I want to die.
I lost my child last month.

I lost my child last year.
Now people who had came, have gone.
I sit and struggle all day long,
To bear the pain so deep inside.
And now my friends just question, Why?
Why does this mother not move on?
Just sits and sings the same old song.
Good heavens, it has been so long.
I lost my child last year.

Time has not moved on for me.
The numbness it has disappeared.
My eyes have now cried many tears.
I see the look upon your face,
"She must move on and leave this place."
Yet I am trapped right here in time.
The songs the same, as is the rhyme,
I lost my child......Today.

~Netta Wilson
Well sorry to vent I felt like I had to get it out . There is alot more in here that needs to come out.

On another note ..... Amy and Abby Miles came for a visit in January and It was so nice to finally get to meet Amy in person. I felt like I have known her all of my life :) I cant wait untill we can get together again !

I will post pics soon :)

Gray Kennedy Creekbaum

Welcome to the world Gray Kennedy Creekbaum ! Weighing in at 8lbs and 1oz. & 21 inches long. Congratulations Leigh and Travis on the birth of your beautiful and HEALTHY son. Enjoy every precious moment it is priceless :)

Celias Drs. appt. update

Well its hard to believe she is almost 6 weeks old. She went to the drs office for her 1st shot :( She did great. Celia is now weighing 11 lbs and 6 ozs. She is 22 1/2 in long !! She is lifting her head, cooing, following objects with her eyes, and the most important ... Smiling at mom and dad :)
Below are some pics we took a couple of weeks ago. Please enjoy !

Everyone is Great !! Pictures !

Well its been awhile since my last post and I apologize for that.
Celia is doing great. She is sleeping about 4-5 hrs at a time. She went in for her well baby check-up and was back up to her birth weight ( 8lbs 14 ozs ). The doctor couldnt be more pleased with her progress. She is already trying to hold her head up.She loves bath time as you can see.
Burt continues to be great with her. She really has him wrapped, and he is loving every moment. He just started back work this week and when he is leaving she is eating or just finished and when he walks in the room and talks to her, her eyes light up. Celia has a photo shoot scheduled for this friday. Hopefully everything goes well :)
Shawn is doing great with her. He holds her for me so I can get some things done. She gets tired of sitting in the swing. When she starts crying I pick with him and tell him to stop pinching her. He is wrapped also :) LOL !!!
As for me, I am in love. What can I say she is my baby girl !!! Some say that she is a miracle but I say Drake was the miracle and she was meant to be. She fits in so well its amazing. The dogs dont even mind her. My mom asked me if I feel complete. I dont think complete is something I will ever feel. I am content. I have a healthy son and daughter that i thank God for. I will forever have a picec of me missing. I know Drake is watching from above where he is healthy and whole. He will forever be in my heart.
I just cant say Thank You enough to everyone that has helped us along the way. I will post more later.

SHES HERE !!!!!!

Celia Grace Michel arrived on July 1, 2009. She weighed 8 pounds and 14 ozs. She was 20 & 1/2 inches long. Celia is very healthy. She cried like a champ when she arrived !! ( thank GOD )
Burt and I couldnt be happier. She has been nothing but a joy to have home with us. She already has her daddy wrapped around that little finger.
I will post more later. Just wanted to give the details and show her off.
Amy, Steve, ^Faith^, & Abby We send our Love. Congrats !!!!

Abby Grace Miles

Congratulations to Amy and Steve !! Abby Grace Miles was born June 29, 2009 at 10:58 pm. Weighing in at 7lbs and 11ozs. She is 20 inches long !! Everyone is doing great !

38 weeks and 4 days pregnant